Wednesday, July 18, 2018

Struggles. Ok, so my biggest struggle this week is staying on task. Some things came up Monday that skewed my day from what I had planned, then Tuesday I woke up with this horrible headache and just could not function. I tried… but I only lasted an hour or so in front of the computer before I caved.

Today I am trying to play catch-up. I hate that feeling of being behind. So I will try to keep this fairly short since I am still trying to fix Tuesday.

I struggle with my health. That is just a fact of my current life. I can plan all I like, but I never know when a bad day is going to hit. Monday was a bad day, emotionally, but I still did as much as I could… which turned out to be a lot. I made all these back-end changes, additions, and clean-ups on my old site, Flocked Media. Which is now flocked.media since I lost the .com version of the name a couple of years ago. Now, to buy it back it would be $3,500+ because I apparently made the site so well-traveled in my time with it. My decade using it. So now I have imported what I could of old articles, dating back to November of 2005. I cleaned it up, worked on some new articles and postings for it, and added a new logo which reflects the new .media domain. Then I emailed all my old contacts to update them on the new site, email, etc.Only time will tell if I can get it back to being a well-traveled website. It has been on my mind for ages, but there was so much little techy stuff to do… but this Monday, I did it. I just got in this focused mode and got it done. I didn’t get everything done on my list that day, but getting Flocked back up was just huge for me.

The glitter inside is kind of like a snow globe, so I turn this to whichever side feels most appropriate for my day, then watch the glitter swirl. I like that part.

So Tuesday comes and I have a backlog of Monday on my plate, then all the Tuesday stuff… and now Wednesday comes and I am just under it all. Plus, I didn’t get into my office (home office) until 10 am today, so then I feel like the day is half over. It isn’t, and I can still make something of it, but try telling that to my anxiety. And all of this is just my world. Never mind what awaits in the outside world. So many pressures from all around me just have a way of settling in. I need to find better ways of coping with my pains, aches, and problems. Sometimes I am amazed that I can accomplish anything at all. Truly. But I love my work and I love creating things for people. I think that is the only thing that keeps me going most days. I think that is pretty much the key to life: find something that keeps you going, that makes it all worthwhile. For some that is a spouse, it is kids, it is pets, it is people, or just about anything else. I don’t have children or a spouse, so that alters my outlook considerably. But I have my cats and my art, and that is just huge. My family is another big part of my life. That’s what keeps me going, even during the worst of my pain and mental misery. So now it is about time to carry on and do what I can with this day.

My favorite quote during, hell, all the time, is by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe. He said, “Enjoy when you can, endure when you must.” To me, truer words have never been spoken. I even have the quote displayed on my computer desk space. I need to see it. A lot.

P.S.

My other struggle this week has been finding the best way to resize iPhone images to upload to WordPress since the limit is 2 MB. Emailing seems the quickest way so far, but I am going to explore some apps. It is important to work on my sites from my phone as well as from my computer.

P.P.S

My other struggle is staying on track on days like this.