Wednesday, September 5, 2018

This Wednesday struggles blog is so necessary right now. I am just exhausted. I really hate that Fibromyalgia just takes so much out of me. I have been in a lot of extra pain lately, too. Every joint, previous injury, and especially my ankles just ache like crazy right now. The depression isn’t too bad at the moment, but anxiety is on high. I just cannot focus or seem to accomplish anything. Although I did accomplish my Tuesday project from start to finish… although I had been wanting to do it for about a week now. I struggle most with writing. I just cannot keep a train of thought, more than usual. I don’t even think I can wander off topic like I usually do. I just have nothing to say right now. I have a lot to whine about, though. Unfortunately, whining accomplishes nothing and just further alienates those around me. Sometimes I don’t know how I have any friends at all.

I don’t have anything for the pain other than Advil, plus the Lyrica which calms most of my pain doesn’t allow me to drink alcohol. It isn’t just a warning on the label, I have tried. I get this crazy sort of allergic reaction after just a sip or two. I turn bright red, I feel hot and sweaty, my mind races and I feel like I am going to pass out. So… not exactly the result I might want from having a drink or two. So after a few attempts, I just gave up all alcohol almost two years ago. I am not a big drinker, but knowing I can’t is just frustrating as hell. Massages help but the good ones are expensive. I haven’t been great at any kind of meditation or exercise. I know that is something I need to work on, it is just hard for me to put new things into my routine. Not a great excuse, but it is all I have right now.

So how else can I deal with the increase in pain? Well, I just got this transcutaneous electrical nerve stimulation {TENS) device which uses electric current produced by the device to stimulate the nerves for therapeutic purposes. I am going to try that and see if I have any improvement. I really hope so. I am running out of legal options. In the past, I have thought that TENS devices make me feel weird, but right now weird is better than agony.

Enjoy the clip art that Google helped me to find.